A New Year

So I am a year older.  What a way to start my new year.  I was sitting watching some TV right before Tim went to work on Friday and I got an email from a school that I was trying to get into that I was not accepted.  Reason being is that I have not attended college before.  It was an on-line college and they want you to have at lease some college experience or your AA.  So now I sit there alone because Tim has to go to work and the kids are still at school and I don't know what to do now or were to begin.  Were does one start when they are older, how do I begin?  What does all this lingo mean when I am looking up things online?  I am so confused and don't know were to begin. How am I able to take assessment test when I cant even help my kids with math?   Now I am another year older and need to start some were but just don't know how. 
I did have a wonderful birthday though.   My Brother in law had a party for his 50th birthday so we had a party for him on my birthday.  As we were getting ready in the morning my in laws come over and brought me homemade cupcakes. As a family we celebrated it today.  The kids decorated the house with signs, Tim made a great dinner for me and HaiLee made a cake that even she could enjoy with me.
One thing I do know is that at the end of the day, I have a wonderful family. They love me know matter if I have a job, if i am going to college, if i am making a difference in the world they love me for me and that is the best present that i could ever ask for. 

What am I going to be when I grow up?

Being unemployed has made me have alot of time on my hands to think about what I really want to do.  I see people and they ask how is it going and I don't know exactly how to answer them.  I have met friends for lunch, Went with Melanie to to take her daughter to horse therapy, visited with some friends, and been able to pick the kids up from school every now and then.  Treavor was able to stay home today from school because he wasn't feeling well.  Spend time with Tim with out kids around.  Gone grocery shopping after dropping the kids off to school, volunteered to help Treavors Teacher help cut some projects for her.  I have always said that I bow down to stay home mothers, there is no way I would be able to do that.  It is a tough job and I don't like my kids enough to stay at home with them. :)  Now I am there and it is hard and even harder than I thought it would be but at the same time I love it.  The kids do like that I am at home (I think)  they are able to have dinner before we rush off to baseball practice for all 3 of them.  That is a huge change.  Normally I rush home from work and we rush getting dinner done and out the door and don't have time to even talk about their day.  There are alot of projects that I have wanted to get done for many years but didn't have the time.  One my one I am getting them done.  I am not rushing to get them done.  I am taking my time to get them done and enjoying it when I do, do them.  One more thing that I am working on is going to school to be a teacher.  I am in a position for the first time in my life that I have options and get to take things slowly to make sure I am able to do something that I can retire at.  Thanks to my father in law too we are redoing our kitchen.  New cabinets, flooring and a paint job.  I will be posting pictures as the construction begins.  As I spend more time figuring things out I will take this time to really reflect on what it is I want to do when I grow up.