Now what!

OK now that i have updated my blog with photos.  I am going to update as well.  I did not get into the online college that I was hoping too.  I guess you need some sort of college before you can get into this one and I don't have that.  I worked since I was 16 so college was never an option for me and I had done very well in the mortgage industry with out any college.  now that I am unemployed I am trying to figure out what I want to do.  I have been researching colleges and what the ratios of what I want to do and get a a job and right now in today's market it is not looking so good.  I thought that I had wanted to go to school to be a teacher but looking into stuff there are more unemployed teachers. If I do go to college for that I will still have a student loan and not a job.  So I have decided to take the summer off and spend time with my kids and finish my kitchen up and some other little project and take time to figure things out.  I will just start taking classes in September when the kids go back to school and not stress to much about what I have to become.

My GrandPuppy

This is Caliber, He is my grand puppy.  BreAnna and Penn got a puppy and when they came to visit i was on puppy sitting.  I had a good time with him, he was only like 4 months old and kept me on my toes but when he would come lay on me and sleep it made it all worth it.  I know it is just a puppy but knowing that its my daughters and that she loves him like a child makes it so different than "just a puppy".  He was alot of fun!!!

My Flowers

with me being home I have made a little time in the front yard for flowers.  I have not been one to plant flowers but this year i got some for mothers day and have been having fun seeing them grow.  It is alot of fun sing that them bloom. 

Let the construction begin!!

unloading the first set of cabinets

arnt they pretty!!

measuring were they need to go

putting them up!

still putting them up

measuring were the stove hood will fit under the cabinet

the first part of them being up. 

Treavor helping out

So here is what we have been up to these days.  My Father in law is building me cabinets for my kitchen.  They are so beautiful.  We are moving the sink back to the window were we believe it was when the house was originally built.  It is suck a mess right now but looking at the cabinets in the garage were they are being built makes me know that i can hack the havoc and am so excited to have them done.  With the help of my mother in law we picked out the paint and the counter tops and it is all coming together.  I can not thank my in laws enough for all their help and work that they are doing for me. 

A New Year

So I am a year older.  What a way to start my new year.  I was sitting watching some TV right before Tim went to work on Friday and I got an email from a school that I was trying to get into that I was not accepted.  Reason being is that I have not attended college before.  It was an on-line college and they want you to have at lease some college experience or your AA.  So now I sit there alone because Tim has to go to work and the kids are still at school and I don't know what to do now or were to begin.  Were does one start when they are older, how do I begin?  What does all this lingo mean when I am looking up things online?  I am so confused and don't know were to begin. How am I able to take assessment test when I cant even help my kids with math?   Now I am another year older and need to start some were but just don't know how. 
I did have a wonderful birthday though.   My Brother in law had a party for his 50th birthday so we had a party for him on my birthday.  As we were getting ready in the morning my in laws come over and brought me homemade cupcakes. As a family we celebrated it today.  The kids decorated the house with signs, Tim made a great dinner for me and HaiLee made a cake that even she could enjoy with me.
One thing I do know is that at the end of the day, I have a wonderful family. They love me know matter if I have a job, if i am going to college, if i am making a difference in the world they love me for me and that is the best present that i could ever ask for. 

What am I going to be when I grow up?

Being unemployed has made me have alot of time on my hands to think about what I really want to do.  I see people and they ask how is it going and I don't know exactly how to answer them.  I have met friends for lunch, Went with Melanie to to take her daughter to horse therapy, visited with some friends, and been able to pick the kids up from school every now and then.  Treavor was able to stay home today from school because he wasn't feeling well.  Spend time with Tim with out kids around.  Gone grocery shopping after dropping the kids off to school, volunteered to help Treavors Teacher help cut some projects for her.  I have always said that I bow down to stay home mothers, there is no way I would be able to do that.  It is a tough job and I don't like my kids enough to stay at home with them. :)  Now I am there and it is hard and even harder than I thought it would be but at the same time I love it.  The kids do like that I am at home (I think)  they are able to have dinner before we rush off to baseball practice for all 3 of them.  That is a huge change.  Normally I rush home from work and we rush getting dinner done and out the door and don't have time to even talk about their day.  There are alot of projects that I have wanted to get done for many years but didn't have the time.  One my one I am getting them done.  I am not rushing to get them done.  I am taking my time to get them done and enjoying it when I do, do them.  One more thing that I am working on is going to school to be a teacher.  I am in a position for the first time in my life that I have options and get to take things slowly to make sure I am able to do something that I can retire at.  Thanks to my father in law too we are redoing our kitchen.  New cabinets, flooring and a paint job.  I will be posting pictures as the construction begins.  As I spend more time figuring things out I will take this time to really reflect on what it is I want to do when I grow up.

MAJOR CATCH UP!

Hailee was in the school play again and she had the part as the mom.  She did really good and she had a lot of fun.  The play was called Whip Out and they had a surf competition to save the mommy and pappy surf shack.  In the end they saved their shack and all was good.

For the past few years for HaiLees birthday her Aunt Gina has taken her to go ride horses.  HaiLee has a great time. Thanks Aunt Gina!!

So this year when we went to the tulip festival Tim talked me into letting the kids take a helicopter ride,  I have a video of them taking off and landing but not sure how to get them on here :)  soon i hope.  i was a nervous wreck but the kids had a blast. 

The first mow of the year.  TJ did a great job and i am so thankful that i have a kid that can do it :) 

Treavors first baseball game.  The other kids have not had a game yet so stay tuned for more pictures of my athletes.  I love going to the games and watch them have fun.

Treavor and his best friend Jaden went to an Easter egg hunt.  TJ stayed home because he wasn't feeling to well but it was crazy and fun at the same time. 

Ran into Albertsons to get stuff and an Easter Bunny showed up, so it was a Kodak moment :)

Dying Easter Eggs

Last but not least my grand puppy, BreAnna and Penn got a puppy and BreAnna said to "Smile for Grandma" and he sticks his tong out. Calibur is so tiny and cute.

HOW IS BEING UNEMPLOYED FEEL?

I have had a job since I was 16, i have never not had a job because being a single mother i couldn't afford not to work.  Being in the mortgage industry this day and age has been a struggle to stay employed.  Seattle Mortgage has been a great place to work for the past 10 years and have seen many changes though the years with in the same company.  My kids only know of me working at Seattle Mortgage.  I feel really blessed to have survived this long with them.  With that said me taking some time off to figure out what i want to do when i grow up has been hard.  I have a supportive family and husband that letting me stay  home has been fairly easy.  I have found that i have nothing but time on my hands.  Usually when i get home from work it is RUSH, RUSH, RUSH, between making dinner, getting kids to sports activities and such i was always felt rushed. I forget that i have time so when i go and cook dinner i rush though it when i can actually take my time and enjoy cooking again.  I have projects that i will be working on shortly and know that i don't have to rush because i have all week to get them done.  One thing that i am noticing is that i am forgetting things like crazy.  I feel like i don't use my brain enough i guess.  I am getting used to the idea of being home.

So many changes.

This year has been alot of ups and downs.  Right now things are changing and with me being somewhat of a control freak this is way out of my hands.  Work is moving me to our corporate office which means several changes that comes with it.  First of all I have a new boss, 2nd I will have a commute in a different direction and I have to pay a portion of my parking.  They are making my job centralized so no more branch processors.  I have been with my company for over 11 years and one thing that has stayed the same has been my current boss.  He is not the one that hired me in the beginning.  I have worked with him for the past 11 years but he became my boss for the past 6 or so years. (i have lost track of years i am sure).  He has seen me through all the ups and downs of my life.  From being a single mom of 2 to getting married and having a baby and seeing my oldest graduate high school, to moving out, Kindergarten for my kids, surgeries that i have had or my husband.  Not only am i loosing my boss but also a big part of my life that has been there through thick and thin for me. My future is unknown right now with this company and that scares me.  My younger kids have only known me for working at Seattle Mortgage.  This is going to be a huge adjustment for them as well.  My hours will be changing so i wont be able to drop them off at school.  I have dropped kids off at school for the past 13 years.  I have never seen any of my kids not off to school and not drop them off on the school grounds.  I know i live walking distance from it but it gives me something to look forward to in the morning as saying good bye to them and telling them to have a good day. I don't know how my new boss will feel if i have a sick kid at home or them calling me when they get home from school and i talk to them on the phone. I have so many unanswered emotions about this that it scares me to the core.  I just hope that these changes are for the good and that my kids adjust to these changes as well. 

SEEMS LIKE TREAVORS LIFE!

Treavor has a wrotten tooth that broke so he had to get it removed.  He was such a champ!  This would be his first tooth to loose but no tooth fairy for him becuase it was wrotten.  As the dentist was taking it out it kept on breaking.  He did a great job but one thing he learned is when mom says to go brush your teeth you better do it. 

Treavors boyscout troop got to go to the hockey game and boy did he get spoiled.  It was the first time that Tim got to go with just Treavor to a game and they had fun. They got to go on a tour before they opened the door to the public. 

On Presidents day I took the kids to my brothers and sister in laws house in Orting.  They have the best rivers and a fun place to go for a walk or bike ride.  Treavor was in Montana for the week visitng his sister.  Here are my nephews and buddy the dog.  They rode their bikes and Gina and I walked the dogs.  Great weather and a great day off!